One thing I know beyond any doubt is that I am sane and yet…
The second I started paying attention I began to question my sanity. Except it seemed so insane as I reflected on what I was noticing and yet…
The Holy Trinity factored into what I noticed was happening around me. The 2008 Olympics in China and even the concept of unity, but had it always been this way and simply noticing it and recording it had brought to my attention that it was something very real.
To be looking for some sort of pattern was almost a ‘second’ nature to me. I have always believed that there is an underlying order to the world and what appears to be random is in reality a complex matrix of interlocking patterns. Besides, we really create the world and the labels we use to define it. Or do we notice it and label it for what it really is?
Naming my first cat ‘FIVE’ should have been a clue to me. I think I was about two or three years old. My parents asked me what I wanted to name the cat and they said, without thinking twice about it I said, “FIVE!” When they pushed me for a reason I responded that five was my favorite number. Now who has a favorite number when they are so young? The interesting thing was that I noticed that my life seemed to unfold around the number five. Every five years seemed to cycle into some new life adventure.
Zero, line, triad, square, pentagon, hexagon, heptagon, octagon and so on. Shapes that are aligned with numbers. I know that numbers are simply metaphors and place holders for mathematical concepts and ideas, but I began to think that there was something more to them than first meets the eye. As I paid greater and greater attention to the world I began to notice patterns supporting so much of that world. It was like a piece of fabric that is made of cloth. We see the cloth but we tend to ignore the weave of individual threads not to mention the colors of those threads.
Just ask yourself. Why are there seven days in a week, twenty four hours in a day, twelve months in a year, and sixty minutes in an hour? Numbers make our lives manageable. They also make the world understandable and comprehensible. One of the more fascinating mathematical models that we use to capture the world and make it definable is the Fibonacci sequence. Leonardo Fibonacci (1170 – 1250 CE) was a mathematician who was instrumental in providing us with the Arabic numbering system (1, 2, 3, 4, etc.) over the Roman numeral system (I, II, III, IV, etc.) which lacked a zero. He also gave us the bar we use in stating fractions.
The sequence 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21… is the beginning of his famous numerical sequence. Simply add the previous number to the number in front of it. If you take two sequential numbers in the sequence and divide the smaller number by the larger one you get what is known as the Golden Ratio or Phi, an irrational number. The Fibonacci numerical sequence and ratio is sometimes called the God number because it shows up in so many places in the world of nature. It mathematically describes (to mention a few): the curve of a nautilus shell, the growth pattern of branches on trees and the population growth of rabbits. Sunflowers have two spiral sets of seed rows and the numbers are Fibonacci numbers. Even our architecture is often based on this number sequence! Wow!!!!!!!!!!
To me the most amazing number is number nine. Take any sequence of numbers and add them up until you only have one number. If that one number is nine than that entire number is divisible by nine. For example if the number is 45,333, then you add those numbers up and you get 18. Take the 1 and 8 and add them together and you get nine. If you divide that number by nine you get 5,082. If you take 9 times 2 you get 18, 9 times 3 you get 27, 9 times 4 you get 36, 9 times 5 you get 45. What’s really cool is that as you continue, the same numbers reverse into 54, 63, 72 and 81 (the exact reverse of 18, 27, 36 and 45) all of which each total 9! What I am driving at through all of this rambling diatribe is something very bizarre seems to be happening to me that involves numbers of all types and everything that they describe which seem to make up the textures and constructs of my life.
I first noticed it about three years ago. I was sitting at my dining room table and I glanced over at the digital wall clock. And not so strangely, I remember the number to this day. It was my birthday May 6th, and the clock read 12:34. It was exact hour and minute of my birth back in 1978. At first this struck me as an amazing coincidence but after that event I began to pay more and more attention to the numbers in my life. It started out very simply and a minor distraction, but now I am bordering on a condition that could be called obsessive compulsive. I don’t know what made me write down by birthday but I did. There it was – 12:34 5/6/78! The truly spooking thing was that I was my parents’ ninth child. My life changed at that moment. I started to pay attention to the numbers around me and what I noticed was more than just a little scary.
If you limit yourself to the simplicity of single digits you work with 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, and 9. Everything reduces down to just these nine numbers. To make sense of this I had to give the numbers meaning. One represented unity. Two was duality. Three was the trinity. Four was for the four basic physical forces (gravity, magnetism, strong nuclear force & weak nuclear force). Five was my number of cycling years. Six was the number of protons in the carbon atom (making up all organic molecules). Seven was the holy number used in the Bible. Eight was the lucky number used by the Chinese in developing Feng Shui. Finally, the number nine was of course, the magic number.
At first the numbers appeared to be random and interesting but really not too mind-blowing. The mind-blowing thing began to happen a little over two years ago. I was having little number revelations and insights but all of a sudden whenever I would reduce a series of numbers it would reduce to nine. Not every now and then, but EVERY SINGLE TIME!!! I could force it to be other numbers but whenever I did it randomly it always equaled nine. And then after three months it didn’t. Then it started to equal eight. Always! Well not always because after another three months it started to equal seven. I was starting to notice a pattern and I didn’t like it. This was a countdown.
Well now I am down to everything equaling one and it started a little over three months ago. If I don’t miss my guess I think I have a pretty good idea of what it is coming and when it is coming. On November 11th in 2011 at 11:11 AM whatever is going to happen will happen. I am afraid that it will be the moment of my passing. 11/11/11 at 11:11 equals 10 which reduced becomes 1. In one way, I really will be okay with dying. This obsession with numbers has almost totally subsumed my life. It has ruined all of my relationships. Every time I try to explain this to people I know or even strangers, they look at me with that ‘Okay…’ sort of a look. I can’t focus on any job that I am doing without looking for numbers and their meaning. I am NOT crazy! These numerical coincidences are just way too consistent. SOMETHING is happening to me and the meaning is hidden in the numbers.
God help me!